Shower Epiphany

I had an epiphany in the shower today.

Weird place to have one of those, you're thinking. I know, but hear me out on this one.

Today after school I did yoga that a few teachers are starting to do for the next few weeks. So I was all de-stressed and worked out and sweaty, which naturally makes one compelled to take a shower. So I'm in the shower, just chillin', you know, showering, and I start singing, because that's what I do. I'm singing some random songs that I don't know entirely, some disney songs, some classic rock songs. You know, just whatever pops into my head. Then I start singing my favorite song at the moment "I Will Follow You Into The Dark" by Death Cab for Cutie (if you haven't heard it, GO DO SO IMMEDIATELY) and for some reason, whether it was the lyrics or how calm and soothing it sounds a'cappella or anything like that, I was just filled with this overwhelming feeling of euphoria. As if everything I had been worried about recently or any worries that were brewing away and ready to develop were just completely banished from my mind. I'm not sure if it was the yoga or what, but I really just became truly and completely happy.

If you think about it, we spend most of our lives worrying about what will or won't happen or what has or hasn't happened. There aren't many moments where we stop to think about what it actually going on in the moment. In high school, it's generally two categories: academics and social. "What did she say about me?" "What's he going to do when he finds out I said that?" "What should I say to him when I see him?" "When do you think they'll break up?" "Do you think he'll ask me out?" "What if I fail the next test?" "Is my grade going to go down if I didn't do well on that quiz?" "When's our next test?"
Notice that none of these questions is present tense. We're all so worried about the effects of what we do in the long run or planning out how to act in future situations. We do it so much that, in fact, nobody seems to realize what they're doing right here and right now. Perhaps if we payed more attention to our actions now instead of later, we'd have less to worry about in the future. After all, everything reciprocates, so who's to say that the things we do now aren't the exact things causing the problems we're all so worked up about?

I guess the main point of all this is that I just want to let go of all those worries. Being happy is the greatest feeling in the world, and we should all try our best to be experiencing it 24/7, but there's no way to do that if we constantly worry about what to do in order to make ourselves happy in the future. You can never catch up with the future that you're painting that brighter tomorrow for, so stop worrying about what you'll do then and start being happy with what you're doing now.