Day 27

This month, in great detail~

To sum up my month would be next to impossible. So many random little things happen to me and I have the memory of a goldfish with ADHD, so it'd be a very confused and sporadic description if I could even come up with one. But throughout this month, the things that stand out the most in my mind are the people I encounter and the situations that happen with them. There are a few people I really need to say some things to, so I figured here's the best place to do it. Anonymously and worry-free.

Person 1
I honestly don't even feel like we're friends anymore. We barely see each other, we're always with other people, and the saddest part is neither of us really tries to fix it. I know that no matter what you'll be there for me and I hope you know that I'll always be there for you, but I just don't think that we're ever going to be as close as we used to be. Our lives are just too different. I'll be going soon and you'll still be here, and I think the reality of that is starting to set in for both of us. I feel terrible admitting that part of me doesn't really want to stop it because my life is moving forward to change completely, and I kind of want to let it do its thing. But no matter what, you know I love you with all my heart and I'll always be here.

Person 2
I'm so worried about us. We're such a confusing...thing. In reality, we probably don't classify as anything. But to me we do. And I feel like it's slipping through my fingers. I don't blame you really; I'm not there, you're not here. It's understandable that you would leave at some point, and to be honest I expected it. I guess I just didn't expect to be so affected by it. I figured that since I knew it was going to happen, it wouldn't phase me when it did. But it really is; because even though deep down I knew that you were going to leave sooner or later, the thought never even crossed my mind. Not once.

Person 3
I hate you so much it's ridiculous. And the reason I hate you is because I love you. Isn't that a bitch? The mere thought of you infuriates me, everything you do pisses me off and is so mean and insensitive to how I feel, yet I keep coming back for more. Holding on to you is probably the stupidest thing I've ever done in my life, but I can't bare to let go. I really just want to punch you in the face. Maybe if you'd let me do that it'd let out all the confusion. That'd be cool.

Person 4
What is your deal?? I'm so confused by what you're doing right now. You haven't even looked in my direction for months unless it was a glare of death, and now suddenly in the past week you've directly addressed my existence twice. I don't know whether to assume that you're finally starting to forgive me and realize why I did what I did...or if this is all some part of your plot to shank me in the stomach the next time we come across each other in an empty hallway.

Person 5
Words can't even begin to describe how happy I am that I met you. In the past month, you've been a better friend to me than I've had in a very long time. Even though we've literally just become friends, I trust you more than I do 95% of the friends I have now. I feel like I can talk about anything to you and I'll never be judged, and you can do the same with me. You kinda rock my world. <3

Persons 6 and 7
You guys get a paragraph as one combined unit because we're all just one big combined unit. Throughout this year, you two have become my best friends. We're always together, we're always happy when we're together, and we get along and compliment each other's personalities so well it's kinda scary. You guys are honestly the greatest people I've ever met and I love you both so much. Three Muskequeers forever :) <3>