Day 28

This year, in great detail~

As we slowly near the halfway mark of 2010, we near the end of my time as a Junior. Just a few AP Exams and a little time left over and then I'm done. It's really mind-blowing to think about how fast time has gone by. I remember coming into 11th grade thinking, "This is the last year I have before being a Senior. It's my most important year. It won't go by that fast, this can't actually all be happening." Yet here I am, about 9 months later, nearly on the top of the high school totem pole.
Sure, I'm marginally scared. Applying for college and actually GOING there really freaks me out. But at the same time it doesn't. College changes everything. It's the beginning of your independent life, and independence sounds really satisfactory right about now. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents and my sister and everything...but I want to get as far away from them as humanly possible. It's not even mainly because we don't get along or that I'm sick of listening to their rules and regulations (although that does obviously play a factor) but I just want to be free. I want to run my own life and have to make my own decisions and be forced to take responsibility for myself. Whenever something gets too complicated and I don't feel like dealing with it, like SAT sign up or college research, I just tell my parents and get them to fix it. In college I can't do that. And while that kinda sucks because I'm extremely lazy, it's also amazing because I'll be legitimately living my own life. Every decisions will be my own. I'm so excited for that power.

I could go on and on talking about where I want to go for college and how I plan on getting there, or how much I'm going to miss my friends and the memories from high school; but everyone already knows that. That's what every Junior is thinking about right now. No point in reiterating. All I do want to say, though, is that Senior year is our last chance to leave our mark. Our last chance to do and say all the things we've been contemplating since freshman year. Our last chance to let all the underclassmen know that they can't beat us. Ever.

Go big or go home, '11.